Yesterday was a beautifully executed, perfect morning. Trouble is I had to rise at 3:15AM to make it happen!
- Woke up.
- Made coffee and recorded 21 minute podcast.
- Posted podcast to Soundcloud.
- Composed blog.
- Packed lunch.
- Ate breakfast.
- 10 minute sitting meditation.
- 10 minute Qigong.
- Set up daily journal.
- Left for work at 6:20AM.
This morning, I woke up at 4:45AM and already I feel pressed for time.
This week I’ve been thinking a lot about the inner critic. I’ve been listening to Steven Pressfield interviews on Soundcloud, and his whole concept of creative Resistance is related to the inner critic, which is related to the concept of superego. The first time I ever became aware of the inner critic after reading the book No Plot? No Problem! A Low-stress, High-velocity Guide to Writing a Novel in 30 Days and participating in Nanowrimo (National Novel Writing Month) in 2007. In novel writer, the Inner Critic is called by another name: The Inner Editor. The Inner Critic is the reason most of us cannot write books, or accomplish many other goals.
Years later, I was introduced to Eckhart Tolle who made a point that was shocking and unsettling at first. The voices in my head are not me.
The Super Ego is the voice of your parents, teachers, and any other moral authority or guides who influenced you as a child.
I loved the title of this article, “The Superego- Breaking Free of a False God”. It’s worth a read too. Your parents probably had the best intentions, but in some ways they can cripple you for most of your adult life, having taught fear and feelings of inadequacy.
I have a feeling that someone is reading this right now and hearing about this for the first time, having that moment of recognition and familiarity.
“You mean that voice isn’t me?”
No, but the voice is the reason you haven’t written that novel, recorded that album, started that business, stuck to your fitness program, don’t earn a higher income, and so on.
It’s a false god and, as Steven Pressfield says, it is “always full of shit”.
Deng Ming-Dao on Ubiquity:
Tao is everywhere.
It cannot be kept from the sincere.
Today’s entry in 365 was simple. Although Tao originated in ancient China, tied to that old culture, it still exists today, even with our air travel, digital communication, and factory farming. Tao is not something esoteric, and is applicable to any situation, race, or culture. We do not understand Tao by old scriptures, but by direct experience.
Ryan Holiday is changing themes for the month of February to passions and emotions. This is where Stoicism helps me out a lot. For most of my life, I’ve had issues with rage and lashing out against people who hurt me. It got really bad around 31 and reached it’s apex around age 39. My adolescence and 30s were all about anger and rage.
According to the Stoics, anger is a weakness. It may even be a trap someone set for you. There’s another stunning revelation. Some people actually enjoy pissing you off and getting a reaction, and enjoy seeing you in pain, acting like a crazy person, when they are provoking you to behave in that way.
In fact, that ties in with tomorrow’s theme in 365 Tao called Defense. It’s about casting out demons from your inner circle. I have a lot to say about that too.
So February can be thought of as Anger Management Month. Many of these Stoic ideas were borrowed by Dr. Albert Ellis, who created the model of cognitive behavioral therapy and what we call “anger management”.
See you tomorrow. I’m off to work.